Life lately.

19.2.15

This post has taken me two months to write. Two months of difficult decisions, heartache, tears, new chapters, new friends, a house move, and lots of pizza/chocolate/alcohol. Some of you noticed that my blog went offline (thanks for the tweets, emails, etc ladies!) and some people have figured out something is wrong from my less-than-happy posts on Twitter and Instagram. It really means a lot to know I have so many lovely friends out there.
 
I have found it too painful to write this up until now. It's extremely difficult to sit here writing it even now, but I miss my blog terribly and need to somehow find a way to bring it back into my life. I like my blog to be a happy place but I can't carry on as 'normal' without a small explanation, and I guess sometimes life isn't always sunshine and rainbows. Life right now is extremely hard, and the only thing I can do is take each day at a time, but I hope one day things will seem positive again and the pages of Lily loves Lola will be positive too.

Jonathan and I broke up a couple of months ago. As you know we were engaged and had set our wedding date, for 4 months from now. I don't really want to go into too many details as I'm sure you can imagine how tough it has been.
 
I have moved to Sheffield to live with a friend (and her two cats!) who I couldn't have got through the last two months without. She has been amazing! Lily and Lola are here too now, after a short stay with my parents just while I got myself settled into my new routine.
 
I was going to share a few photos of what I have been up to lately but it almost feels wrong to share that just now, so I will let the words do the talking just this once.
 
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47 comments:

  1. Oh Victoria, my heart goes out to you. Always remember that you have the support of your many, many readers. Whatever the reasons, I hope it all works out for the best x

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  2. I am so sorry to read this. I'm sure your little doggies have given you reason to smile during the darkest days. Hope things get a little easier for you soon xx

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  3. So much love to you xxx

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  4. So sorry to hear your news. Thinking of you x

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  5. So sorry that you're going through a tough time.
    You deserve only good things, can't wait to follow your new adventures on your blog x

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  6. I'm so sorry to hear you're having a horrible time at the moment, Victoria. There really aren't any appropriate words when someone is going through such a difficult change, but I hope things start to seem brighter and you get strength from the support and love of your family, friends and readers.

    x

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  7. Sending you, Lily & Lola all the love and hugs in the world - we're all here for the good moments and the bad ones.

    Lots of love

    Sarah & Tedpug

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  8. Hi Victoria, I am so sad to hear of what you are dealing with. Lots of love, kind and warm wishes your way. Love from Janie.x

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  9. Sending love, hugs and supportive thoughts your way x

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  10. I'm so sorry to hear you are going through such a heartbreaking and difficult time. Please know that things will get better and you will feel happiness again in time. x

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  11. So sad to hear this, my heart goes out to you! Sending lots of hugs x

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  12. I'm so sorry to hear you're going through a hard time at the moment. Things will get better and everything happens for a reason, even if the reason isn't clear right now. Sending you lots of light and love. It's so lovely to have your blog online again xx

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  13. So sorry to hear that!
    Sending hugs xo

    Renee
    www.losetheroad.blogspot.ca

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  14. So sorry you had such a bad time. I hope you feel much much better now xo

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  15. So sorry to hear that, keep strong xx

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  16. Oh love so sorry to hear, sending warm wishes your way x

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  17. Oh Victoria, my heart goes out to you. I know I am just another blogger and essentially a total stranger, but if you ever needed someone to talk to, I am here for you. Feel free to email me any time: lucy@curiouser-and-curiouser.co.uk

    As much it all hurts right now, things WILL get easier I promise. I know everyone always says that and it's such a cliche, but it's true.

    Lucy x

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  18. Oh, Victoria I'm so sorry to hear this. Hope that things get easier bit by bit. x

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  19. So sad to hear you have had a difficult time recently. You're a wonderful person and it might not seem like it now but things will get better in time and you have those lovely doggies, friends and family looking after you. Hope you're settling in to your new place and enjoying Sheffield xx

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  20. I'm so sorry to hear you're having a rough time. Break-ups are bloody miserable. I hope you feel better soon!

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  21. So many hugs sent your way! I'm so sorry and shocked to hear this, you two were a couple I compared my bf and I to. You seem like a strong woman and I hope you feel that you are sooner rather than later xxx

    Ohhellojo.blogspot.com

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  22. I'm really sorry to hear your new Victoria, sometimes life takes some unexpected turns. Glad to see you back online though (I've missed your blog posts!) and that life is looking up a little bit. Lovely to hear you have such a good friend and supportive parents by your side. And your readers are here for you too! Xxx

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  23. My husband and I broke up just over a year ago and although it is painful now time really does heal and life with get easier just bare with it :)

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  24. I think I said in a tweet- sometimes we have to go through a change to get our butterfly wings. It's perfectly ok to feel how you feel, and reflect that on your blog. Life isn't perfect, and tough challenges come along. Just remember that you have a lot of people on twitter and the blog who care about you. So glad you have some good friends- and L&L too of course. Take care and just speak out if you need a bit of support or your mind taking off things :) xx

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  25. My heart breaks for you. Stay strong, you'll get through this. xx

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  26. Oh Victoria I can feel your heartache in your words. So sorry to hear things didn't work out. Stay strong and positive and focus on new beginnings. When one door closes......... Sam xx

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  27. Lots of love your way Victoria...
    Martina

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  28. Sending so much love your way Victoria. Things will get better! Glad to see your blog back.

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  29. I am so so sorry to hear this however I was very pleased to see your blog back on my newsfeed. I hope you continue to blog and love your new stage in Sheffield. That's my hometown and I know you'll love it :)

    Hugs and love

    Sophia x

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  30. I'm so sorry, sending lots of hugs. I'm sure this post was very difficult to post, but thank you for sharing.

    UK Beauty and Lifestyle Blog

    xx

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  31. Oh my dear, I am so very sorry! I am proud of you for sharing your feelings here, it is not an easy thing to do. I am glad to see your blog pop up again, it was much missed by myself and surely all of your supportive readers! Hugs and warm California sunshine coming your way : )

    Alexandra

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  32. Oh, I'm so sorry. As much as I am usually just a lurky (though long term!) reader, I really do feel very sad on your behalf. Keep your chin up x

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  33. I saw this on instagram and i am so sorry. But, on a brighter note so glad you are back. We missed you! Simxx

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  34. Victoria, I am heartbroken for you. You are one of the good ones, and I've read your blog and followed your story for so long now. It just doesn't seem fair. I feel so sad.
    But, I know you are a strong person, in every sense and your fierce determinaton and passion for life and everything that it brings will bring you out of this awful situaton.

    Sheffield is a great place, and I'm sure you will find some happiness here. I'm not far away (Waterthorpe), if you are ever around, it would be lovely to meet one day. I wish you, Lily & Lola all the very best x x x

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  35. Oh hunni, I'm so sorry to hear your news but glad things are slowly picking up for you. Sending you lots of love x

    www.hello-cat.blogspot.com

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  36. Oh, I am sorry to hear this Victoria, and think it's very brave of you to put this post out there. It'd be lovely to have you blogging again, I do enjoy reading about your adventures and seeing pictures of what may well be the two cutest pugs in the world (seriously!). I wish you all the very best for this new chapter in your life. Sending hugs and warm wishes to you and your girls xxx

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  37. so sad when a relationship breaks up. I hope you find happiness in the future and take your time to mend your heart.
    xxx

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  38. I'm so sorry to hear this Victoria. I know there aren't really any words that can bring comfort, but I hope you find peace and happiness soon and that you get plenty of love and support from your family and friends. x

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  39. I have been a reader of your blog for sometime now, I never post on peoples blogs as I just like a good read, however I actually feel the need to post for the first time ever. it's ridiculous and I could probably put it down to 'that time of the month' but I have just actually shed a tear reading this post.

    I was in the same place a couple of years ago and although I didn't believe it at the time, I have come out a much stronger person. Good luck for the future, I look forward to reading what is in store for you this year xx

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  40. I was so sorry to read this Victoria (my name is @amelialkd I tweeted you some time ago) I love reading your blog and always check in. There is no platitude I can say to make it better but trust in the healing power of time. This was so well written, eloquent and elegant, keep writing and I'll keep reading xxx amelia

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  41. Oh. Possum. I have only just caught up on this. I'm so sorry. I have been following you for a very long time and I remember the day you two started out. I know no one will say anything that will even roughly touch the surface at the moment - but having gone through a split in the last year or so, I can tell you, just think of a year on. Someone like you - she'll be loved wherever she goes. xx

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  42. Ah Victoria I am sorry. I was a bit concerned when I saw your blog had been made private and I now understand why. I hope you are doing okay and have a strong support system around you, a blog is very therapeutic in times like this. Lots of love xxxxxx

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  43. I'm so sorry, Victoria. I hadn't been on your blog in ages and decided to have a catch up (you're always so good for weight loss inspiration!) and I'm really shocked to read this. I'm sorry you're going through this but having said that... you're getting on with things, making changes and challenging yourself. Wish I could have been like that when I went through the same thing! Good on you, girl! Also, I think we share a birthday, I turned 30 on 3rd Feb too! Scary and depressing! x

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  44. I'm sorry Victoria, hope time can help you darling. Glad to have you in my reading list! Baci,
    Coco et La vie en rose fashion blog - Valeria Arizzi

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